Or I will be once the apathy settles down properly. I'm not even sure what the hell is wrong with me but I'm in a real mood this afternoon. Probably something to do with being informed that our workload here is going to increase dramatically in the next while.
They're going on about training courses and improving skill sets and all this groovy stuff that would be amazing for a career and I just don't care, they can take their job and shove it up their collective asses for all I care. The courses can go up their noses and the "bonus scheme" can go in through their ears. I'm bored of the continued increases in workload and demands on skills without any return on it. I'm also pretty fed up with meetings that take an hour or more where they say nothing of interest, only more of the same crappy assurances we've heard a dozen times before. Yeah I'm lucky to have a job, but I'm not going to sing and dance either for or because of it.
Equally I'm not bothering with any more companies who offer job opportunities of a lifetime, or jobs that seem too good to be true because I'm not going to contribute to their exercises in soul destruction by getting my hopes up for jobs that don't and likely won't exist for quite some time, if ever. Even if you don't believe in hell, you can be assured that there's a part of it roped off for those fuckrods.
I'm working on business plans and loan applications at the moment and by the end of the year I hope to be leaving the strings of broken promises and assurances and terrible furniture that's fucking my posture. I have reached a state of zen, I no longer hate my job, I just don't care about it any more. I'm actually getting really close to being out of here.